thanks again destiny's child . . . you said it better than i ever could - he even said so himself

apparently i used the wrong song to describe the latest installment of "playing with the little boy who is as crazy as i am, if not more".

two saturdays before my apartment flood i found out that the reason the little boy kept going in and out of my life was the fact that he had a girlfriend . . . interesting how anything done in the dark comes to light . . . more info to come . . . cuz you know it gets juicier :)

Is She The Reason

I thought that this was somethin Promising that one day
It would turn into something (This)
Thought the feelings were mutual
And I didn't have to guess
Started being skeptical
Always unavailable
Like ya didn't know
But now I'm feelin' something (This)
Tellin' me this may not be the real something (That)
You was showing me
Now I'm ready and you runnin'
Damn you got me open
Now I'm feelin' like I'm chokin'
Now where am I to go?

I can't -believe that you can't feel my heart
And I can't - believe you let me fall so hard
Stop playin' - How could you let it go this far?
If you had doubts that I wasn't the one
You said - That you’re the type to take it slow
You said - Before I stepped I’d let you know
Stop playin' - Before you let me see you with her
You coulda told me a change was gon' come

Chorus
Is she the reason you don't call like you use to
Fall thru my hood like you use to
Put it on me hard like you use to do
I feel in my mind what's goin' on but my heart won't let me go until I know
Is she the reason that my calls
Couldn't reach ya
the deepest of my love
Couldn't please ya or bring it to me home
Like you use to do
Seeing her fallin 'for your charm got me feelin' like I wasn't good enough

See I know we not official (No)
Us being official
Ain't ever been an issue (No)
It came down to us
Boy remember we were different?
You said that we'd talked
If we ever had a problem bout anything
I was cool with no commitment
WAIT!!!
Let me take that back
It was you, so I was with it
(See)
I guess I didn't get
When you showed
You didn't miss it
Now it seems that your interest ain't here
We ain't the same

All you had to say
Was this ain't what
You want I wouldn't be so hurt
and I could just move on
You had me believing that everything
Was my fault
But I can see it now
It's a situation that I must let go
Cause you ain't
Gonna be a man and let me know
I guess me seeing you
With her tells it all